What's up with depression?
Today i want to talk a bit about my feelings. i feel like maybe writing this somehwere will help make me feel better so bear with me lol
I do believe my depression is getting the best of me lately. My life is going well, pretty good even, but my brain insists it's not and it makes no sense. Maybe it's the loneliness. i do live alone and most of my friends only interact with me on the internet. Don't get me wrong, i love every single one of them and they make me feel so loved, but sometimes what i need is a good old hug, and there's no one around for that.
Today, i traveled back to my hometown to visit my family and stay a couple of days. I brought my laptop with me to help with boredom, but i really cant bring myself to do anything! i stare at my Steam library, at the games i was playing just yesterday, and just don't feel like it yknow? i try browsing the internet a bit, watching some videos, but it's not doing it. all i can really do is lay down and sleep.
Earlier today, when i arrived here, i cried a little bit. i felt so overwhelmed by suddenly having people around me again and i kinda broke down there. i'm feeling a bit better now, don't worry, but yeah. I don't know, my life is going well but my brain sure is doing strange. Too bad, i used to always get into the jolly christmas spirit, but this time i'm really not feeling it. Sorry for such a downer entry on a day like this but writing all of this did help me a little. So yeah, thanks for visiting and reading all this, and thanks to all my friends who are so beloved to me ^w^
